How I became 'that' kind of parent

It's very easy to attach labels to different parenting 'styles' - crunchy mom, hockey mom, green mom, tiger mom and so on... These terms are used casually, especially in online conversations, but do we ever stop to think whether those parents intended to be labelled so in the first place? (I've written about the social pressures of parenting earlier.) Nobody really starts off thinking, "I'm going to be that kind of parent". Every baby is different and all parents are distinct individuals after all. Circumstances determine what we really end of becoming.Nine months of pregnancy gives ample time to think about how we are going to be as parents, and everyone wants to be perfect. But things rarely work out as envisioned.

There were many things I was determined to do 20 months ago, but today, mom to a 16-month old, I am a very different person. I don't know how I got here, but I just went with the flow without clumsily hanging on to my idea of 'the perfect parent'.

What I thought: The baby should sleep in the crib. It's best for everybody.
What really happened: This resolution barely lasted two days. Apart from the fact that I was recovering from a c-section, the baby would wake every hour, sometimes sooner. I threw all caution to the wind and just took him to bed with me. I didn't sleep great, but I slept at least! And Little Dude slept much more comfortably. And that's the way it has been since. It was only later that I learned that co-sleeping is actually considered safer, especially with newborns.

What I thought: I won't need a lactation consultant.
What really happened: There is nothing as 'simple' I thought, as nursing a baby. After all, that's the natural order of things, right? Turns out, I should have had a LC on speed dial. We did manage to work things out after a week, but even that would have been easier had I looked up breastfeeding support groups in advance. I eventually did find a lot of support online, but being prepared for it would have been better.

What I thought: There should be a fixed bedtime for the baby.
What really happened: This one is making me snigger! From the beginning, I've always followed my baby's lead for sleep. So, even though he won't sleep at a fixed time everyday, he always gets enough sleep by napping as often and long as he wants to. Now, there are ways to schedule a baby's sleep, but I never got around to doing it. I used to scoff at children who stayed up late and believed in an early bedtime, but that just hasn't worked out for us. Maybe once Little Dude starts school, we'll work it out (fingers crossed).

What I thought: I'll get a babysitter after the baby is a year old.
What really happened: There were many reasons why I didn't go out much in the beginning. But I had decided to start going out without the baby after a year, probably by hiring a babysitter. I used to wonder why couples with kids didn't spend more time by themselves. Turns out, it's harder than I thought. For one, we stay away from our extended family and I am just not ready to leave the little one with a babysitter. Secondly, I just can't leave him behind! I guess I have more separation anxiety than he does! It's great that parents do manage to spend time away from their kids once in a while, but I'm not ready for it...yet.

What I thought: I'll only feed home made, wholesome baby food.
What really happened: I did manage to make my own baby food for a year. But now that Little Dude is a toddler and more picky about what he eats, my aim is to just get some food in his tummy. I still make food at home, but I don't deny him Cheerios or a sugary biscuit, when he won't eat anything else. 

What I thought: Parents should instill discipline early on. 
What really happened: Little Dude has started resisting all that I want him to do, but I can't bring myself to 'discipline' him. Like many ignorant people without kids (some, with!), I used to frown at that toddler having a meltdown at a public place. Not so now. I totally understand that children should not be expected to behave perfectly. I believe in guiding, not disciplining.

People would probably say that I am an 'attachment parenting' or 'natural parenting' kind of mom, but I am not really worried about the label. Being a parent should not be about a set philosophy or set of rules. It should be about realising the dreams you have for your child and yourself.

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Unknown said...

I think people judge you no matter what...... the wonderful thing is the day you realize they do not matter, you and your family is most important. People judge me all the time, especially in the small town we live in. I have really grown mentally ,spiritually, and emotionally in the past 6 months. A lot has changed and for the better. Be proud of the mother that you are, it is the hardest job in the world. People will judge for everything, so you just have to let that go. It sounds like you are a wonderful mother to me. :)

Tarana Khan said...

Thanks Heather! I feel bad when many moms feel guilty because they think they are not doing the right thing.

Jen B said...

This is so true, and what you wrote reminds me a lot of myself when my children were born! I guess I would be considered one of the "attachment parenting moms" if I had a label, but like you I think we are all different and we all have our own unique style of parenting.

Eileen said...

This post is great! You should read the book-" I was a good mother BEFORE I had kids". It relates to this post a lot. I was like that before I had children too. Now I have two boys, my youngest is one, still breastfeeding and bed sharing. I love every minute, except when he head butts me in the middle of the night. But he wont be sleeping with us for very long, so I'm enjoying these last nights:)

Tarana Khan said...

Yes! It's just unfair to judge on the basis of what some 'experts' think parents should be doing.

Tarana Khan said...

Thank you, Eileen! I am totally taking in all those special moments :)

Mummy Zen said...

I think a lot of mums can relate to this! Parenting is definitely not something you can plan or decide on until you are a parent and are going through the day-to-day reality of being a mother or father. You have to decide what fits with you and your child and trust your own instincts!
Have popped over via Oldies but Goodies :-)

Tarana Khan said...

I think every parenting experience is different, and there's no way to predict how things will turn out. Thanks for stopping by!

Unknown said...

This is a great post Tarana and one I totally 'get'. I think we all have ideals before we are even pregnant of how we plan to parent and what our children will be like (or perhaps NOT like!). Especially agree on the sleeping thing, I was fixated with routine and a set bedtime!

Tarana Khan said...

Basically, everything turns upside down once you actually give birth!

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